I lived life as a carefully mixed cocktail derived from a classic recipe:

1. stir in everything and everyone else

2. let myself sink to the bottom

3. drizzle a steady stream of body-numbing distractions 

 

I mixed my life flawlessly, as women historically have.

And it was fine, until it started costing me.  

 

Peak substance addiction finally came and I sought help and came to understand why and where it came from... but I still carried the feelings around.

 

I was still frustrated and lonely and lashing out.

 

I locked into a cycle of fixing myself. "Self-care" justified earning relief through more coping behaviors. If I ate too much, I worked out harder. If I was productive that day, I drank a bottle of wine that night. If I scrolled for too long, I would give my kids a treat.

 

I thought I wanted peace, but I was trained for stress. I realized I would always be trying to escape my life; this time in the name of a f*cked up self-care balance.

 

Through all of this, my body was with me.

And what my mind couldn't figure out, my body felt.

 

Each day, I took steps to return to feeling. I followed a program while tolerating being witnessed in struggle. I craved change but doubted my capacity to follow through. And that's what delivered the shift: I stopped managing my life. And started feeling it.

 

This is the work that I am trained to do now. 

 

I work with women wrestling inside the pull of quick gratifications that leave them wanting.

Women who sense their worth but are consumed by routines that don’t reflect it.

Women who feel a surge to rally and recover that worth.

Because recovery ushers your superwomen experience back into focus.

And focus is power.

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This is the work of returning to your true priorities.​​

If it speaks to you, I encourage you to reach out.